Avatar, "It Doesn't Matter to Me" Azula, rated G

[quirkysmuse]

Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender
Title: It Doesn't Matter To Me
Character: Azula, Zuko mentioned.
Rating: G
Theme: "Mother" at avatar_contest
Word Count: 194
Notes: "The Beach" spoilers, I suppose. I don't really write in first person, so this was a bit of a challenge for me to get her voice down.

Summary: It's her mother's birthday, and she convinces herself she doesn't care.



It’s my mother’s birthday today, and the servants can’t stop whispering about it throughout the palace. I try to ignore it. It means nothing to me.

I don’t believe my mother really loved me. She might have been more terrified of me than anything.

I don’t really remember her that much anyway. No matter.

My brother had enough of her love. I suppose she couldn’t spare any for me, despite what she thought of me.

I’m quite sure by the way she looked at me – the fear and shame in her eyes – that she considered me a monster. A little girl. Ha. Isn’t that funny?

My own mother thought I was an inhuman, unfeeling beast when I was just a little girl.

Not that I care. I didn’t care then, and I certainly don’t care now. I have father, and he’s strong. He’s not weak like she is.

I don’t need a mother, and I don’t care what Zuko says. He can have her all to himself – if she’s even alive at all.

No matter. It doesn’t concern me if she’s dead or not. This kingdom has survived without her, and so have I.

Comments

[rosehiptea.livejournal.com]

I like this. I can definitely picture those being her thoughts.

[quirkysmuse.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I appreciate the comment. :o)

[heystella.livejournal.com]

Usually I tend to shy away from first person fics because it's really difficult to voice the characters correctly, but you did a great thing with this. Just like in The Beach, it shows her disregard for what Ursa thought about her, maybe thinking she might have cared, but reverting back to say that she didn't. I really liked the fact that you explored that concept here.

[quirkysmuse.livejournal.com]

Wow, thank you. I appreciate it, especially since you don't read first person fics that much (to be honest, I rarely write them for the reasons you stated). :)